[natural-nostalgia]

2010-08-22T06:11:00.000-07:00

You know what, I am done with all of this. All these dramatic eclipses. All these moments of doubt. All these burdens of thoughts. All this waiting. All this awkward silence. All the lonely nights. All the lonely thoughts. All of this is just a waste of time. One day you will see that nobody has it easy. It takes time, it takes loyalty, it takes forgiveness. It takes two people, working together, believing and not giving up. And yeah, I guess I see you found someone new, and I am happy for you, I guess. But you know, I am not giving up, cause well, I am someone who never gives up. But I am done being hurt. Done letting you take over, cause you are like a disease that just won't go away unless I kill you, but I don't want to kill you. Because even thought you take over, sometimes it's not always bad. But really, you are walking all over me. I'm not a little ant you can pick at. You need to decide. You need to make a choice, because I made my choice, I'm in. If you are out, let me know, cause I can move on. Not that you don't matter, but it's not the end of everything, but at the same time, it could have gone the other way around and be the start of something beautiful. But whatever you choose, just let me know, because waiting, it's no longer something I find worth it, for anybody, cause in the end, everyone just leaves me. I don't like that. And I'm done crying, done being scared, done being left. I don't want to be abused. I just want to have someone to catch me when I fall of the edge, someone to make me smile with tears in my eyes, someone to just be with me even when I'm not the best, someone who has seen the bad side, and the good, but still stays. Make a choice, cause if you leave, I was right. You were wrong. And I win, either way.

` AMAZING THE WAY YOU ARE !

2010-08-20T10:28:00.000-07:00

I've been failing and fell hard lately.It was the toughest moment in my life,I swear.I couldn't control the emotions in me,I totally lost my ownself.Only those who are part of me would know the fact that I didnt had a good meal ever since fasting started.Falling sick is already a routine and there you could see the weakness in me.Yet,I knew that you amazing people are my backs all along.

Thanks a million to my dearest sister for being there with me when I cried like a river and you were exactly there to tear with me.You forced me to eat and even take that extra mile to deal a personal conversation just to make things better for me.How thoughtful my sister could ever be.For you greatest cousin,thanks alot for the 'Better in time' video cover posted on my wall.I felt a little cured after listening to it,that was so sweet of you to somehow cheer me up.And to all other girlfriends,for the random texts which I didnt even expect really crack up my day and obviously,I misss each one of you.

These beautiful people are the ones who make me wanna live each day without fear of anyone who would ever bring me down again.Thank you again,I love you all!

♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥♥

` JUST WANNA BE HAPPY !

2010-08-13T22:20:00.000-07:00

Finding happiness is like finding yourself. You don't find happiness, you make happiness. You choose happiness. Self-actualization is a process of discovering who you are, who you want to be and paving the way to happiness by doing what brings YOU the most meaning and contentment to your life over the long run.Happiness comes only from appreciating what you have right now. You can even be happy by appreciating your troubles because they are helping to build your character.

` IN MY SHOES !

2010-08-08T22:20:00.000-07:00

A lot of things has been running out of place these days.From one to another which doesn't get any better like how i wished it could be.To hear the loved ones are in their lows makes me even down. ): I hope it'll make everyone to have a broader view of life from here.And sometimes I wonder if I could ever be as happy as cinderella which has a beautiful ending to the story because everything was too miserable lately.I wish I've got the courage to pour what have been bothering me to you girls.

` FREEBIRD !

2010-07-25T07:23:00.000-07:00

Hope you had a blast yesterday,babe.And hopefully,you'll love what's in the box from me cause it was really a random last minute search.Hahahaa.Whatever it is,love you to bits.(:

Tmr is gonna be a new start.Somewhat a break before I start on something afresh,err which I'm not sure when.Okay just for now,pick a date and text me.Cause I'm all freeeeee baby!

` GET BUSY LIVING !

2010-07-20T09:43:00.000-07:00

Gosh! Time is really speeding its way like nobody's business and I'm like running after the clouds each time.I'm left with two more days to complete whatever task that are needed and then its a farewell goodbye for me.Even though the months there were really sucky at times,but hell I pulled it through.Yup,its a good experience for a start and I've learnt to be very independent ever since.But I got to leave for good cause I believe that there are more ways to opportunities to expand and experience.Hopefully everything would be alright,better if possible.

I've not been in my bestest lately.And that I know why. ): Hopefully the meet up with the girls and more of girls for the week would make my days great.I just wanna have a good ol' laugh,thats all honey. ♥♥♥

` PINUP SNAPSHOTS !

2010-07-18T07:37:00.000-07:00

The week has been a hectic one.Its all about rushing through everything.And thank god,it all ended great.Saturday was photoshoot session.No doubt it was our virgin trial,kakak2 dah tua baru nk feeling photoshoot eh.Hahaha,nonetheless it was as fun as expected.Thanks Syahidah Stifler,sissy's bff.We had our individual shots with triple outfits and as a threesome as well.Everything was awe-inspiring,impressive.From the concept of the studio itself,the lightings,the backdrops, photographers,make-up & hairstyling room,galleries and what nots.

The bad idea came when the hairstylist had to comb my hair!!! I was totally paranoid to the ultimate cause eversince I curled my hair,I did NOT even use a brush to groom my hair just to ensure that my curls last you know.But I swear this is one of a sacrifice I had to do. ): Another,I don't do well with fake eyelashes,pls.Oh so,fake babe.Hahh!

We'll be waiting for our canvas and two of our A4 photos to arrive next month to occupy the room wall.Looking forward to the following. (: I could hardly catch my breath now,just returned from JB with sister since morning at 0930hrs,to send our cloths to be tailored.Hmmm,I thought tmr would be the ideal day to clear my last leave? Shagggged!

` CONTRADICTING HUMANS !

2010-07-13T09:11:00.000-07:00

People change. And often, they become the persons they said they will never be.

` GO GO GO ! ALE ALE ALE !

2010-07-07T08:51:00.000-07:00

Let's raise the Espanyol flag and fly it up high,baby! Looking forward to the unpredictable scores and tight match later. No matter how well Spain gonna do or how bad they're gonna get trashed,they are still the champ to come up this far.
Ien todo, España!

` LOVE THE WAY YOU LIE !

2010-07-05T08:35:00.000-07:00

I fucking love this fucking song,damn it.

I'm just tired of every day's routine.I'm sick of what I'm doing now actually.Its a drag man just to see myself overslept in the train and missed the the station when I'm supposed to alight most of the time. Hopefully next week would be my last,but for sure I'll miss the people who entertained most of my nonsense each day.Believe that I'm gonna find something good that I could gain,time matters for now.

` JULY,BRING IT ON !

2010-07-04T09:55:00.000-07:00

` IT IS ALWAYS THE NEXT MOVE !

2010-06-27T07:36:00.000-07:00

Its been too hard these days.I wish I could be left with no choice at all rather than keeping it a pressure to decide on one.Of which it requires a long term thinking before making the right step than regretting later.I've been seeking help and shared to those who are willing to lend their listening ears,yet I've not found the answer to it.

At the end of the day,noone could even make a decision for me.Cause the verdict to every little choice of ours come sincerely from each of our hearts.We are the person who has to decide. Whether we'll do it or toss it aside; we are the person who makes up our mind. Whether we'll lead or will linger behind. Whether we'll try for the goal that's afar. Or just be contented to stay where we are.

` SLOW EATER,SLOW THINKER !

2010-06-24T08:22:00.000-07:00

After so muchhhh of our tight schedule,finally we got to meet up.And ohh god,didnt know that we have freaking loads to tell.Cerita da basi pon tetap mau share.Initially our plan was to have movie after a long day at work and school for Qid.But I think we're both slow thinker that we didnt even have the idea to book our tickets in advance.Due to that,we just had to drop the Toys Story 3 than breaking our necks by having the first row in cinema. :/

Spent our one and a half hours for dinner at Burger King.Hahaaa,what took us so long also I dont know cause what I'm sure of is we didnt even have a line of buffet kind of dinner lah.Kalau mkn dgn bf,da kene maki siaa Qid.Hehehee.

I'm really glad that you've found somebody,babe.And I wish that it'll last till forever.Make sure your ressa-herlambang-look-alike-bf will make you the happiest girl ever.Love you many lah eventhough you gave my no. away for photoshoot session.Kau da gilaaaa kaper?!

` GIMME HAPPINESS AS THE MEDICINES !

2010-06-15T08:29:00.000-07:00

World Cup season is back.The heat is here,so as the fever.Im not sure if the fever Im having now is the cause from the World Cup.Well,I doubt so too.My health condition is getting poorer.If I could track on time,it has been months that I felt healthy and well.No,doctor says I've got no low blood pressure.But again,doctor conclude that it might be the cause of mentally stress or something like that or eating disorder which i don't think so.

So probably now I have to find ways to release those stress in me.Maybe by looking at the picture above might help for now.Ohhhh well,sucha hottie!

` POWER RANGERS !

2010-06-01T08:01:00.000-07:00

We were a strange little band of characters trudging through life sharing diseases and toothpaste, coveting one another's desserts, hiding shampoo, borrowing money, locking each other out of our rooms, inflicting pain and kissing to heal it in the same instant, loving, laughing, defending, and trying to figure out the common thread that bound us all together.

I think people that have a brother or sister don't realize how lucky they are. Sure, they fight a lot, but to know that there's always somebody there, somebody that's family.They are the ones who were there when everything fails on me,when nobody was there for me.It is just amazing to see how every little of us grow and went through every single bit together.Nothing beats the love between us and for sure,our bloods are thicker than anything else that you could think of.

♥

` HAPPY UNWRAPPING !

2010-05-22T21:54:00.000-07:00

Knock off from work early and had my half day leave as I was a little pressurized after a meeting early in the morning on the upcoming procedure that is left for me to handle now,alone.And of course,I had to run a minor errand for the day before I had a simple friday night to end with.

A walk to Helix bridge and had a view of the formation Marina Bay Sands while we catch the beautiful sunset.Marche just had to dissappoint me with the freaking long queues,should have made a reservation though.Then decided to head over to Earle Swensen's for Surf and Turf with the Fisherman's Catch for dinner.Ben & Jerry's mix and match afterwards before we start to mess about and mock at each other.Well,it was just an ordinary Friday with lots of crap and bullshits.Perhaps,The Mussel Guys next,alrighty?

` DECADES !

2010-05-10T09:39:00.000-07:00

'I become the idiot chasing for you..And you tryin to be cheeky'

` REAL GOOD MOMMA !

2010-05-06T09:27:00.000-07:00

To this temporary disabled girl who just turned 20 few days ago, pls get well soon and rest your toes from walking.I'll be waiting in 10 days time,you better get back to work and check your mails cause its really flooding now! Miss your random company,babe.May you be able to jog from your place to mine (through Brickland Rd) after your toes are really well and hopefully we can go for body combat this time round.Heheheh (:

Yesterday,Dad was being random and asked me..
Dad: Fatin,whr you wanna bring your mother to eat?

Me: Huh? I dont knw..
Dad: Your sister never say anything?
Me: No..

Goshhh! I was like 'Is he sick or what today?' Cause I'd say that will be something sweet of him to even think of where to dine in for the coming Mother's Day.It has been too long my dear,too long for the whole of us to get a proper bonding together esp with Dad.Every single changes I see at home,really makes me a complete person everyday.Thank god,you hear us out.

So much of wanting to watch Iron Man2 today,that I got cheated cause someone just had to watch it online before me.And too bad,the timings for the other movies was rather too late for a working woman like me! So,subway for dinner and we settled down for talks. :/

` FIGURE IT !

2010-05-04T08:35:00.001-07:00

Girl: Why do I feel like, you just.. shut me out? You promised me you wouldn’t tell me to let go again.. you told me to let go of those thoughts..
Boy: I’m sorry I can’t do anything.. I do love you but.. it’s too good to be true..
Girl: Sure you do..
Boy: I love you okay? You’re the only girl I trust, do you believe that? You’re still the only girl that completes me..
Girl: How am I supposed to believe you when you say all those things after the fact that you just leave me in the way that you did? I would LOVE to believe you, but I can’t right now, maybe I will soon, just not right now.. But even though I don’t, I still love you
Boy: I know.. I’m sorry.. but I’m being serious it’s you who always made me happy the way I never was. no one makes me feel special as you do baby..
Girl: See that’s exactly what I don’t understand anymore. Why’d you leave..
Boy: Distance will always get in the way.. On my birthday can you be there with me? On your birthday, like in a week, can I be there to celebrate? I can’t.. it sucks that I can’t.. you can believe me if you want but you’re the only girl who can make me happy.. you’re the girl I love and trust because when I talk to you I actually feel worth something for once you know? Sigh sorry..
Girl: I have several things to apologize for. I’m truly sorry for not being able to be there for you. I’m sorry for nothing being able to make you the happiest in the world. I’m sorry for this distance between us. I’m sorry for not being the best that you truly do deserve. I’m flattered to know how I make you feel, but I know you deserve so much better than me. I just need sometime to let all of the things we’ve gone through go. You honestly don’t have anything to say sorry for. I understand where you’re coming from. You couldn’t wait for us & all that shit. But, when I say this, know that I mean it; I always fall in love with you all over again. I’ll truly say this, you are my first love & that’s the only thing that keeps me smiling now.
Boy: You were always important to me.. it’s not your fault okay? And trust me, I’m here for you just wait..

Ohh,is that love from the first time my eyes set on you?

` ALL PERFECT !

2010-05-01T08:19:00.000-07:00

Yup,Eunice Natalie turned 21st on Apr 27.Since we were incomplete to celebrate with the full force of the other girls who went for a getaway,we had a mini surprise birthday for girlfriend.And the real party started last night.

It has been too fast to see us grow.From the cheeky girls and partner in crime way back in class,yet till now,everything remains the same.Actually not really,cause this girlfriend of mine is totally different now.She is reallyyyy into Malay guys,and is willing to convert for the future soulmate.She owns my back despite the fact that I've told her repeatedly that malay guys are mostly born to be jerks.Sorry ah,but proven enough though.But still,I've always wanted the best for her cause she deserves the most.

Let's see more of each other when it comes to..You laugh,I'll laugh with you.And when you cry of losing someone precious,I'll cry with you too.Just like how it used to be,wiping each other's tears,babe.And when you're drunk,we'll make you sober! Love you to bits,Natalie@Nasha!(given malay name).

` WHERE GOT TIME !

2010-04-24T19:36:00.000-07:00

Im awake this early amazingly,on a Saturday! As supposingly,mok and i have an appointment with the another master for a Hot Yoga session and unfortunately,we are the swines and as expected,we overslept.I was being a little optimistic that we could still rush and go for it when the time is not giving enough.And it is totally impossible for me to get ready in 15mins and for us to reach town area on time.So,we called it a miss!

I just feel like going for shopping today and spend every single cents.Just feel like it..Makes me a happy goober! Cause I regretted buying that dress yesterday,and perhaps gonna sell it off.Its always like that,man.But still again,gifts for the birthday people.I can say that birthday invites have always been keep coming ever since the year started.And it will not stop for the upcoming months for sure.The year of birthday celebrations or what eh? Somehow its a good way to keep up with the bonding at the same time.Looking forward to next week.Gonna get busyyyy!

Am still contemplating if Pak Bull's live in Spore would worth the penny? What say you.

` EHD DEPT !

2010-04-19T07:16:00.000-07:00

I will be leaving this vintage space of mine in days time.Yup,tell me about how outmoded is the communication devices that are provided exceptionally for me in the office ever since when I started till date,it is still the same.Sad,but true,I kept complaining when will they change mine to the better ones instead of the lagging big screen computer system and the telephone that smells real bad.Anyway,my late grandparents did owned that same phone long time ago.Guess its been used for ages.Classic enough.

It was just last week that I cleaned up my desk and it looks real goood now! Dustless and neater than that.Well,despite all those I bet I'll be missing this little space as much too.Its where I conceal while I teared when mom texted me the warmest birthday wish,when I quarrelled with sister over our text,when someone had to tell me things that affect my sensitivity and when I really couldn't control my emotions anymore thinking of every burden that I had to face.So as you know,I totally suck at hiding the feelings in me.Yeah,not to forget when Lotus notes is literally transformed to MSN as a source of communication with Chafeka Shell who will keep me occupied most of the time.

I am really in doubt now,I am still unsure if I should stay for a few months more.Cause Im kind of sick doing what Im doing.Just couldn't decide for now.

` WHERE'S MY CASTRO ?

2010-04-09T08:22:00.000-07:00

As sexy as he could be,Castro.

` DE CHARME !

2010-03-25T09:53:00.000-07:00

I swear we,little bunch of sinful bitches got to meet up real soon before each and every one of you start telling me that you're gonna end your bachelorette life.

` LUXURY !

2010-03-18T01:09:00.000-07:00

I really dig watches that has at least its gold touch.
These really look fantabulously pretty.
Cause I might be splurging on one for myself.
At least I get to savor my earnings and value it.

` MOBILE CLUBS !

2010-03-14T21:17:00.000-07:00

I am totally shagged and I swear I need time on my own,to just sleep my Sunday away.Despite the fact that pay is already in,but hell I can't be bothered.Tell me how do I need to manage a few hours of the day left to spend it with different kinds of plans? Deep sigh!

Ohh,I met an awesome taxi driver last night.Well,I don't know if awesome is the specific word to define him,okay maybe not really! Cause at first,I was rather feeling paranoid alone after Nat got off to Lido to meet her mates.Just imagine,the taxi driver is very podgy,chinese man around mid 30s,and he sounded really cheeky.I was too afraid that the taxi driver won't bring me home and would do something bad to me (I've always have that mentality towards taxi drivers).Thank god,not! He was all along trying to strike a convo while I was too dead to entertain him,so I ended up giving short reponses and had to put on laughters to his wow-so-funny little jokes.

And the most amazing part was in the midst,he asked me if he could blasssttt the music out loud in the cab! I told him,
'why not? great,go ahead!' HAHAHAA! Mind you,he was tuning in to those club mix kind of music!!! I was like,whooo,not bad ahhh~ At least I don't have to hear him blabbering the whole journey right.If I wasn't alone in the cab,I'd have already jump out of my seat and make a chaotic scene in there.Wish taxi drivers nowadays could be more open like this! Hahahaa,rather than tuning in to those chinese opera songs or listening to the current news or even those blues songs,dull isn't it?

Okay bye,making up my mind now.Shits,Mr Rainy is here...

` MARCH,LADIES,CELEBRATIONS !

2010-03-12T08:00:00.000-08:00

Tomorrow would be another 21st party! It'd be a high society party over at Goodwood Hotel,expect it to be awesome,ladies.Next month we'll go Retro! Gotta dig out what should I dress.Ohh,despite the excitement and such,
you know what? Im starting to feel the fever bug down here.Suck it up.

Looking forward to Sunday too for the heaty IT show going on.To just bear with the human traffic and expect kiasu buggers,really made me think twice then. :/

` THE VERY LEAST !

2010-03-11T07:41:00.000-08:00

I don’t expect you to text me 24/7. I don’t expect you to call me everyday. I don’t expect you to put me in front of your boys. I don’t expect you to ditch all your girl best friends for me. I don’t expect you to surprise me with roses. I don’t expect you to buy me the world on my birthday. I don’t expect you to always agree with what I say. I don’t expect you to pay for everything. I don’t expect you to go out of your way and buy all the things that I mention I wanted. I don’t expect you to put me over your family. I don’t expect you to brag about me to all your friends. I don’t expect you to keep all your promises. I don’t expect you to believe I’m the best girlfriend in the whole world. I don’t expect you to stop checking out other girls. I don’t expect you to never mention a hot girl in front of me. I don’t expect you to already know what I want. I don’t expect you to never be mad at me. I just expect you to be trustworthy, to trust me, to never take me for granted like I won’t take you for granted, to always be real with me, to keep equality between us, and to love me. That’s all.

The very least I've ever expected from a real man.Is that still too much to ask for?

` I NEED THOSE BACKS !

2010-03-08T07:27:00.000-08:00

I don't even have any slightest idea which path I'm taking next.I'm totally no where for now.Have yet to see any future ahead me.I told myself to be as optimistic and just go along with whatever comes my way.Cause I'm sure that I still belong to those little stars that would be on my back,always.
God,please bless me.

` GET LOST !

2010-02-22T09:23:00.000-08:00

Too often we are scared. Scared of what we might not be able to do. Scared of what people might think if we tried. We let fears stand in the way of our hopes. We say no when we want to say yes. We sit quietly when we want to scream. And we shout with the others, when we should keep our mouths shut. Why? After all, we do only go around once. There's really no time to be afraid. Sometimes, you just have to stop thinking so much. If it feels right, it probably is. Just go with it.

I'm trying so to avoid those feelings. ):

` CHARM LOCK PENDENT SET !

2010-02-21T09:10:00.000-08:00

These simple little sweets will do.
Its every woman's bestfriend.
(:

` OLD SCHOOL !

2010-02-09T07:56:00.000-08:00

One day,we will be vintage.

` ORDINARY PEOPLE !

2010-02-08T06:39:00.000-08:00

You know,somehow I feel so blessed to have beautiful people around me.I mean,just any thoughtful human or stranger could just make my day.Well,of course especially my loved ones.I don't need to stick with the people whom everyone would recognize when you walk down the street,the hotstuff ones,the coolest gang in town or whatever shit that attention seekers would look for just to feel good and well known to the public.Please,be humble my child.

When somehow you're at one of your lowest point or your day just don't go right,that would be one of the indescribable feeling that you'll encounter.You don't feel like talking,eating or even put up a weak smile to others.Yet,those beautiful people whom I mentioned just had to perk up your day with the littlest things that they could afford to do just to make you feel better.And of course I know,its a great touch when you could make someone smile again.Wonderful.

` THANK GOD I FOUND YOU !

2010-02-01T07:38:00.000-08:00

I'll sing this song to my special someone in life,with god's will.(:
Omg,is this how a grown-up-to-be-21 think like?
Hahaaa,whattheheck! What was I thinking?

` ONE LOVE !

2010-01-25T07:06:00.000-08:00

He’s not perfect. You aren’t either, and the two of you will never be perfect. But if he can make you laugh at least once, causes you to think twice, and if he admits to being human and making mistakes, hold on to him and give him the most you can. He isn’t going to quote poetry, he’s not thinking about you every moment, but he will give you a part of him that he knows you could break. Don’t hurt him, don’t change him, and don’t expect more than he can give. Don’t analyze. Smile when he makes you happy, yell when he makes you mad, and miss him when he’s not there. Love hard when there is love to be had. Because perfect guys don’t exist, but there’s always one guy that is perfect for you.

-Bob Marley

` NOVENA SUITE !

2010-01-24T07:39:00.000-08:00

Its just about me and girls,girls,girls.Celebrating Amelia's 21st was great compared to anything else cause we just got to sneak in loads of gossips and updates that we've missed.Seems like everyone has grown to a somebody.Those girls are pretty much being ladies now.Beautiful.And of course,Im looking forward to see us in maybe 5 years time,having the once and for all bachelor party or something? Let's just see who's the last bacheloratte standing.Ohh,me? Hehh.

Loves youssss.

` NEWTON MEETS NEWYORK !

2010-01-22T09:39:00.000-08:00

__ : So,where do I drop later? novena?
me : Iyelah,dgr2 environment building kt novena pe? go figure.
__ : How do I knw? you dont even tell me where.cpt la...
me : Hahahahhaa.its at newyork lah.
__ : Jgn main2 lah!
me : Hahahahhahaa! adik beradik dgn newyork ape?
__ : Newton is in England you silly!
me : Hahahaa.well,suke hati ah.spore pon ade pe!

KANASAI.

Dont even knw where's my workplace is,confident bugger.

` GOOFY DREADS !

2010-01-19T07:08:00.000-08:00

Dreads are sexyyyyyy!
Still waiting for the right time though.
It'd be soo damn wrong to enter the office with dreads,right?
uuurrghhh,awkward.

` BE PRETTY,GIRLS !

2010-01-04T06:34:00.000-08:00

I am really looking forward to spend the whole of this month with the exciting women.I'll make sure I get to see each and every of you girls that I've been missing out a lot ever since forever? So much of the hectic days,the put-offs,the bubble games that we had.Please,we really need to have a real rendezvous and bitching moments as a kick of the year.Remember! No more excuses okay.

Put that aside first,the most important thing would be the day that I'd become a little richer whereby money will be amazingly credited into my bank to be spent and partly saved.Then,the dates would be rolling in and everything would be solid!

` 2010 BEGINS !

2010-01-01T23:48:00.000-08:00

I wished for nothing else,but another improved year.

HAPPY 2010,ALL !

` LAST GOOD LAUGH !

2009-12-30T08:50:00.000-08:00

Had the last good good laugh all to myself.

At least it was something to be remembered.

Ohh,2009..

` HILARIOUS PLEASE !

2009-12-24T07:13:00.000-08:00

A beautiful woman walks into a doctors office and the doctor is awestruck.
All his professionalism goes out the window.
He tells her to take off her pants and he starts rubbing her thighs.
He says ‘Do you know what I am doing?’ She replies ‘Yes, checking for abnormalities.’
He tells her to take off her shirt and bra and he starts rubbing her breasts.
He says ‘Do you know what I am doing now?’ She replies ‘Yes, checking for lumps and cancer.’
Finally, he tells he takes off her panties, lays her on the table, gets on top of her, and starts having sex with her.
He says ‘Do you know what I am doing now?’ She replies ‘Yes, you’re getting herpes. That’s why I am here.’

extracted from natalie's.

What the fuck?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAAA~

` GIRLS AND HEELS !

2009-12-20T01:42:00.000-08:00

To look pretty in heels, you got to put up with the agony.
Whining will come afterward.

` ALESSANDRA AMBROSIO !

2009-12-15T07:15:00.000-08:00

Ohhhh,gorgeous you!

Green is soo sexy...

` MISAI WAK LU !

2009-12-14T07:23:00.000-08:00

F: Hey,look at her! how come you got misai? Hahahaa,misai tebal!
I: Wtf?! I know I look handsome with misai on.okay,shut up and walk...

Drunked. 

` JUST SUCK !

2009-12-10T08:27:00.000-08:00

They say, 'Don't worry.cheer up! tomorrow's gonna be a better day.' Its yet to come.I'm looking forward for that tomorrow just to see everything back in place.Just to see everyone carving back those smiles.Cause I just can't see it coming.

Ohhh wells,its back to Friday.Another hectic week is gone.I'm simply too tired,really drained.Weekdays are sucha frigging draggggg.Up till today,I'm still not that discipline to wake up early every morning.Yes,I'd be late everyday.Like when in the world that I ever reach early bitch? Hell,I suck at it way too much! That I really hate myself for that.

Work is sucha killer! It got me caught in boredom everytime,doing nothing but just to stare in the blank.Thanks to the energy bars,my whole time favourite crunchy oats 'n honey granola bars that got me awake everyday apart from all those accompanied text messages,silly mms-es.That dull you see!

Yeahhh,I need a time-out.Let's get loosen.

` WE'RE TOGETHER !

2009-12-09T06:56:00.000-08:00

I believe that we are strong enough to pull this through together no matter how bad it affects each of us.
Family is what i treasure most,but we just can't save it anymore. I need your back.
)':

` FAITH A FAITH A FAITH !

2009-12-03T08:03:00.000-08:00

Your time is limited,so don't waste it living someone else's life.Don't be trapped by living with the results of other people's thinking.Don't let the noise of others opinion drown out your own inner voice.And most importantly,have courage to follow your heart and intuition.Everything else is secondary.

` PARTNER !

2009-12-01T08:27:00.000-08:00

There's a new staff in my department that reported to work.Good thing is,I wont be lonely at work facing that slow working desktop anymore.I swear its been long,been long my friends,that I really had a good laugh everyday.Okay,even if its only for a week that Ive been sitting quietly in the office,so not that Amalina please.It gets tiring when you got no one to talk to,apart from mumbling to yourself on the workload.Urghhh!

It was her first day,and I was being such a nice bully.Hahahaa.I disturbed her while she was on the phone answering a caller's queries and I tried to disrupt her by making stupid faces in front of her face and made her stutter that she had to pause the conversation several times just to have a silent laugh.Ohhmy! I'm bad.I bet she's as crazy too.She do talks alot and I'll do the laughing matters.At least there's something to look forward to work now.Finally.

` TIME TO THINK ABOUT YOURSELF !

2009-11-30T09:02:00.000-08:00

It's probably true.

I'm way too nice to people who aren't nice to me.And I always put others ahead of myself, by nature.Cause prolly I was taught to be from young.Yet,this can get very frustrating when others,especially those you expect to be the least selfish,think about themselves first.When you know, without a doubt, if you put yourself in their shoes, there's no way you'd let them down.

` TO LOVE AGAIN !

2009-11-28T02:19:00.000-08:00

All this time I felt so lost, lost and needed help.
Incomplete, out of reach, alone by myself.
It all becomes so clear, when I see your face.
And it's only when you're near, I feel I'm safe.

So before we take this road,
Before you change my mind,
Fill my heart with hope,
Help me to believe this time.
I've been torn apart,
Desperately tryin to find a way back to my heart,
So I can love again.

Ooh, help me love again. Ooh yeah.

I'm so tired of holding on, so tired of waiting.
I need to feel something real, without it breaking.
It all becomes so clear, when you touch my hand.
And it's only when you're near, I know you understand.

So before we take this road,
Before you change my mind,
Fill my heart with hope,
Help me to believe this time.
I've been torn apart,
Desperately tryin to find a way back to my heart,
So I can love again.

There's a fire within me, but I don't know where to start,
There's a light beginning, there's a dark I'm leaving, there's a hole I'm filling now.

Oooh yeah,
So before we take this road,
Before you change my mind,
Fill my heart with hope,
Help me to believe this time
I've been torn apart,
Desperately tryin to find a way back to my heart,
So I can love again

Oooh, turn the page to love again.

This is one of another beautiful single.I'm truly in love with the song. (:

` DEDICATED WISH FROM BELOVED,MOM !

2009-11-25T09:06:00.000-08:00

Inilah hari yg bersejarah buat mak.Hari mak mendapat cahaya mata yg kedua.Mak menahan kesakitan pada tahun 1989.Tapi mak gembira mendapat anak perempuan yg comel,mata yg cantik.Sekarang anakku dah usia 20thn,dah remaja semakin cantik dan bergaya.Inilah anakku Nur Amalina Fatin.Mak ucapkan Selamat Hari Lahir,anakku.

******skip personal skip******

Buatlah yg terbaik utk dirimu.Mak selalu syg anak2 mak.Itulah harta yg ada pada mak.

This is the most significant birthday wish from my greatest beloved mother.It took me time and courage to finish reading the heartfelt wish sent by mom while I was at work.I tried to read the whole text at once but unfortunately i had to stop after reading a quarter part of it cause I was trying hard to hold back my tears.Wouldn't want anyone to see me teared in the office.That in the end,I read the whole text in the toilet cubical and really teared like nobody business.I got really emotionally touched.Just couldn't deny that Im weaker in my inner self.

Thank you so much,dearest mother.I won't be living without you,mom.You're simply amazing,incomparable.I love you like nothing else in this world! Well of cos not forgetting the rest of the wishes from all the wonderful people.Much appreciated.

` TWO KOSONG !

2009-11-25T08:13:00.000-08:00

All i wish upon the twentieth is just to be filled with a long-lasting......HAPPINESS.

` INDEPENDENT !

2009-11-23T08:23:00.000-08:00

The perfect time for me to start standing on my feet.Maybe working life would teach you more on becoming into a young adult.To be more independent.Im still learning.A totally new environment for me.Wish me luck.

` M-U-S-E !

2009-11-13T08:26:00.000-08:00

OHH MY GEEE ~

Are you thinking what Im thinking, B2?

` DRAG MY FEEEET !

2009-11-12T08:15:00.000-08:00

Thank godnesss! Tmr's gonna be Friday,like finally.This week is rather hectic that Im all feeling wornt out.Just getting sick of keying in the forms one after one.It got really tiring when you got to squint your eyes everytime to understand a person's atrocious handwritting,trying real hard to figure out everything.Sighhhh~ The worst part is,we've got to complete at least,at least minimum of 100 forms per day.Seems little,but god knows how I endure throughout.You could see me doing 'headbanging' most of the time in front of the computer esp when its still morning and after eating my lunch.Sleepy what.....

I just woke up from a short nap after dinner to recharge myself back and my phone is still off cause I dont wanna get disturbed you know.PMS lahh oi! pffft.

` GARAGE SALEEE !

2009-11-09T06:35:00.000-08:00

Last Saturday was the second time for us to put up our items for sale at the Changi Village flea market.Maternal family decided to try out and sell some of our used clothings that still looks good, accessories that are not worn anymore,our buy-one-you-want-more classic choc. chip cookies with sister's choc muffin,bibik's fast selling air fresheners and others.We're selling everything off not more than $10 eventhough certain items are labelled ones.So,we're considered as one of the cheapest seller over there.Huhuuu.Well,not to worry,we did make sales and it has been going pretty good for the last two weeks.Hopefully,the flow would get better in time to come.(:

The flea will still go on every Saturday,depending on our free time.A shout out to those who do not have any idea on where to go over the weekends,do come and visit Changi Village Flea and look around.If not,check out the hot chickies-nyah over there.Hahahaa.Or at least grab some of my cookies while it last.That would be great!

Seems like i badly need to go for a retail therapy veryyyy the sooon to stock up some new stuffs since Ive been digging out a number of them for sale.Calling any of my shopping-kakis nowwww!

` LEGONGGGGG !

2009-11-02T21:57:00.000-08:00

Fuck this phone right now!

LG is really LeGong to the maximum.

All my whole lot of pictures and playlist went missing suddenly.

Something got to do with the memory card,shit.

Im an angryyy woman now!

Gggrrrrrrrr~!

` GUA ANAK SULTAN !

2009-11-01T22:37:00.000-08:00

Back to work tmr.Im on a 3 weeks temp assignment and after that short period,I'll be back as jobless again.Damn,this is so pathetic.On a brighter note,I'll be working with great people around.So lucky to have Seri and Adam together that seemed like I've known them for quite sometime.Adam got too tickled over my long name that he labelled me as 'anak sultan bolkiah'. Which according to him the sultans generation had a lengthy name.I seriously had no idea on who the heck is that sultan he's referring to.Hahaaa.While Seri and myself are the champions.It was only our second day of work,and we went in the office 45minutes late.Hahaa.Well, I guess work would never be dull later.Yayy!

Then again,Im trying hard to be optimistic.Been going for interviews at the same time for full time position.Hopefully,I would get at least a space before I turn a year older.Part of the wish lahh katekan.Hehh~

` SMACK ME HARD !

2009-10-29T23:20:00.000-07:00

It's crazy,rightt?
To love someone who have hurt you.
It's crazier to think that
Someone who hurt you loves you most.

Hell yeahh~ Tell me about it.

Say Im confused or what shit it is.

How could I be...

` NATURAL !

2009-10-28T00:28:00.000-07:00

"Truth about girls; it doesn't matter who dumped who or why. Whenever we see an ex with another girl, it always bothers us. Not because we're not over you, but because we know that we used to be that girl.."

` BEST TEAM WINS !

2009-10-26T20:16:00.000-07:00

I rushed home yesterday,not to miss any single part of the match.Just to realized that my dad was very enthusiastic wearing his Liverpool's jersey and the shawl wrapping around his neck with his kain at home.Imagine that! Knew that it was a very unpredictable game,miracle happened anyways.Told ya,Liverpool did a double again over Man Utd this season that has created some of the Man Utd fans could not control their emotions of unhappiness.Led to a tiff amongst some of my friends who supported Man Utd.That bad or what.Chill lah kwn,was just a game lah! Sighh~

Yossi Benayoun really played a big part in yesterday's win.So pleaseeee don't sell that capable player away! And seriously,could Real Madrid stop the idea of buying Steven Gerard away from Liverpool? No way,man!

` BORN IN OCTOBER !

2009-10-26T11:43:00.000-07:00

19/10/2009

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY DEAREST

MOTHER AND AUDREY BABY!

26/10/2009

HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY TO BROTHER,HAFIZ!

May you,my loved ones be blessed with happiness,good health and wealth.Wish you all the best for the coming years ahead.Semoga kamu semua dipanjangkan umur and are given great strength to face any obstacles that come along your way.Amin.Much lovessss~

` IM ANYTHING BUT UNITED !

2009-10-25T12:45:00.000-07:00

Will there be another chance to poke at all the Man-United fans again as how it happened on the last season? Whatever the score would be tonight,Liverpool will always never walk alone.

` EASIER SAID THAN DONE !

2009-10-16T01:35:00.000-07:00

I've tried everything possible ...

` LONGKANGG !

2009-10-15T23:07:00.000-07:00

I swear the chilly weather these days really put me on the utmost hibernation mood.Like expected,I dont really wake up early eversince I'm still out of job.But since this morning I had an appointment with these two mentel-est girls, I was a little self-reliant to wake up on my own eventhough I knew I was already late on time.Without knowing that I had a miss call and 4 messages on my cell,trying real hard to wake me up; which was very much on silent mode.Hahahaa,lucky it was soundless,if not I'd get disturbed from my beauty sleep.Heheee.

" WAKE UP.WAKE UP."
" Taknak bangun ke korang??? "
" BANGUN LA!! "
" Sumpah aku da penat kejot korang "

Sorry babe,next time try harder okay.HAHAHAHAA~ Thanks for the effort anyway,appreciate it much.Sumpah,I love you!

Been long that we truly had those wicked laughters.Lets save up some moolahs for another fun.Hehhh.

` CINTA KAWAN !

2009-10-13T22:43:00.000-07:00

I had to re-read it over and over to get the drift.

Teramat selengeh.

Nice,isn't it?
Awwhh.(:

` IM OKAY !

2009-10-12T23:46:00.000-07:00

The illness was spread throughout the entire family.Initially,mom was down with flu and I was the forth one to get infected.Having cold,sore throat,dry cough,non-stop of dripping mucus,losing of appetite,tasteless food and whatnots.It just couldnt get any better when you're having period at the same time.Triple your pms mode.And now,thank god.I am fully recovered.

Lost the mood of blogging.

Damn it.

` DIG WITHIN YOUR HEART !

2009-09-30T01:34:00.000-07:00

What if there's a feeling of love go beyond the heart?

Even when we hated it that much.

While we try so hard to get rid of it,ego still exist.

Are we still gonna listen to our heart?

` BERAYA WITH MATERNAL'S !

2009-09-29T01:04:00.000-07:00

At Kak Nur's Crib.

With Syahrul Haffyan.

The sweet sisters-Bibik,Obek,Mother.

Forces of the white rangerrrssss.

Driver ngantok nampak.hehee.

Nenek Jah with the Mat Abi's angles.

Non-stop food feasting.

None other than my adorable cute handsome intelligent nephew,Aqil Naufier.

Anak-anak Pak Razak.

Formal oiiiiii.

Abeh kalau informal amcm?

Joget-joget ehh? wakakakaka~

Cant you see my doubly chin? gained it.(:

Finally,the last house for the weekend.

` JERKS DONT CHANGE !

2009-09-24T22:55:00.000-07:00

I received a text from Narrie this noon.which made me burst into laughters alone in the public.I appeared in her dream the other night after we texted.It came to a situation whereby she was looking sad and me being kpo tried to cheer her up.I started to ask if she's having problems with family or friends.But she answered me with 'NO'.The moment i questioned her if its about boyfriend,she kept quiet.The most funny part is...she told me that my face looked damn bloody serious and sternly said 'LEAVE HIM IF YOU ARE UNHAPPY!' Hahahahaha! Am i that mean? Not okay! Confirm muka horrendous habes nk step mana punya fierce.Haahhah,perhaps its a sign of great love towards her that i wouldnt wanna see her getting hurt.I'd never wanna see a friend's relationship get destroyed,yet i'd wish to see it bloom and everlasting.Unless it couldnt be saved anymore,due to the never-ending jerks style.Oops~ Next time,mimpi lah aku jadi kaya or what okay.

Besides satisfying my cravings,i got to dig up a more pleasing news.How effective technology can be that without asking one to one for updates,i could get resources by my ownself through the cyberworld.Amazing,isnt it! I was enjoying myself reading some blog posts; even if it sounded fucking silly,it really made my day and i was laughing my assss off behind this screen.Knowing how desperate you are now,picking up your ex-scandal whom you once criticize inside out.Tsk tsk tskkk,how pathetic a jerk can be.What a pity,man.Nahh,at least im quite happy for you that you've met a better person.Last long eh,hohohooh,(:

2009-09-23T18:52:00.000-07:00

My condolences to my dearest girlfriend,Sharmani and family.I am sorry to hear the demise of your family member.I hope you stay strong and accept this with an open heart.I know its not easy but God loves him more.We'll be here for you,Sharm.Take Care,Love you! Will visit you soon.

` EID MUBARAK !

2009-09-22T11:30:00.000-07:00

SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI

MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN.

Ramadhan passed really fast and Syawal is here again for us to celebrate.Like many said,this year there's like no mood to raya.Maybe because of the not so meriah atmosphere.Nevertheless,we still practice our ritual of seeking forgiveness and stuffs like that each year.The day before raya was dad's 49th birthday.Everyone was all out doing the spring cleaning that we had forgotten to sing a birthday song for him,which we did for every one of our birthdays.Hahahaaa,and he was like so called sulking, saying that no one wished him.So,on the pagi raya,we all sang our hearts out for him.Moga ayah dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki,be a better man,husband and a father.May he be filled with love, good health and wealth as well.Love you always,amin.

Apart from the joyous day,there's also the emotional part of raya which is to seek forgiveness and forgive others.As you know,I really shed tears non stop okay.Dengan semua org aku salam,mesti nangis punya.Gua kan cengeng.Brothers and lil sister had to minta maaf dgn me too.And Azlan was really nonsensical by telling me and sis 'halalkan makan minum eh.' only.Baik ahhh~ Abeh dia punya salah silap tknk minta maaf pe? Haha,I know he didnt wanna say much cause he was hiding his tears away.Kira macam tk macho ah kalau laki nangis.-____- Lil sister lagi best.She just salam each of us speechlessly while we expected her to say at least something.Reason being,she said 'izza tk boleh cakap ahh.izza nak ternangis kalau cakap. ): ' Awwwhhhh.

Visited paternal grandparents' house just to realise that not all of my uncles were there.So there was a feel of incomplete.Whereby we'd only see each other once a year during this season,yet they weren't there.Like always,helped out in the kitchen to serve the whole lot of guests who came at the same timings.Kecoh,angkat tray,potong lontong semua.Tsk tsk tsk.

Then to both mom's sisters' place.Sadly, we didnt get to take a family pic for both the paternal and maternal as everyone was busy.Will do on another raya outing together.(:

Here,I would like to take this opportunity to minta maaf dari hujung rambut ke hujung kaki hamba kepada semua teman,sanak saudara seantara dunia jika ada tersilap laku,tersalah kata,terkasar bahasa yg menyinggung atau menyakit hati dan perasaan anda sekalian.Hamba hanya manusia biasa yg tk lepas dari kesilapan.Harap dimaafkan.Kepada semua,hamba sudah ikhlas memaafkan.Yang masih mau simpan dendam,itu kau punya pasal lah. (melayu gua hancur habes!)

` STRAIGHT OR !

2009-09-16T23:57:00.000-07:00

Perm?

What kind of curl is this called?

Give me opinion lehhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!

I dont wanna cry and curse the hairstylist the moment i step out of the salon.

Bismillah-hirahman-nirahim.

` KARANG GUNI OHH !

2009-09-16T21:15:00.000-07:00

Eventhough im still jobless and for now i really got no time to send in resumes that i think its just a waste of time when ended up i didnt get any replies at all,self-torture.Ahhh,lets hope i'd get a job after raya.Im not that free as what you might think of cause my room,and the entire house i should say need a massive cleaning up.It really gives me a huge headache that i dont know where to start.Did throw aloooooooooot of stuffs,which i think i might earn some bucks if i were to sell it at those fleas or something.Still in good condition though.Yeahh,too bad,i need the space.I really mean it when i say alot because previously the shoe cabinet couldnt fit in the whole of our shoes.And now,not only it can be locked,there's also place to store in more.I found my jack purcell leather sneakers which looked damn tattered,been years keeping it since i very syg wanna throw my favourite shoe,finally gotta dump it.Thats why sometimes i hate spring cleaning. :/ Yet to sort out my wardrobe.habesss ah! mcm nk bukak private home market jer,lelong-lelong barang.

I dont know what made you come and apologise to me out of the blue.I dont know which power has break open your brains to do so,cause i really really dont expect an apology from a callous person like you.Too late,im used to all those bullshits.So,i see no point there.Stop wasting your time coming back,ive moved on with time.But it'd be a lie if i were to say ive forgotten it all.Well,did that nightmare has a meaning afterall?

2009-09-10T08:57:00.000-07:00

why must you still exist in my dreams?
you're just a nightmare.

` PIMPLE ON THE NOSEY !

2009-09-08T22:54:00.000-07:00

Credits to Kak Nani for baking the birthday cake till late at night.hehee,thank you so much for that.i bet the birthday boy was really pleased.i likey the creamcheese alot! we had a small celebration for Muhd (me and sis would randomly call azlan by his initial name at times.cause we like to switch around with names since my another brother got his initial as Abdul.and my dad loves calling them both as 'dol-mat'.) yeahh,the rest of my maternal side came over for iftar as well last weekend.

memandangkan the next day was his Malay N level paper,he didnt get the chance to go out and enjoy his birthday with his friends.instead,being a somewhat reliable student which i think its rare,he revised through the samples of karangan when we attacked him in his room together with a lovely birthday songs and the cake.teros muke nak step paiseh and terharu kaperr.hahahaa.

just look at how tall he has grown.dier punya tinggi kurang ajar habes eh.my parents are becoming shorter as we grow.yet i still wanna grow tall,like 167 at least? provided i gain weight as well lahh.if not i'll look as skinny as your satay stick.no way man.grrr~

got home from JB just before time to breakfast.and i feel like drinking chendol again,tapi dah habes.gimana nie? wahlao ehh,the pictures resolution sucks or what? must be blogger again ah.not nice siaaa.tskkk!

okay dah,bye.my bed is calling.

` IFTAR @ AL-MAJLIS !

2009-09-07T12:46:00.000-07:00

Last Friday was iftar with the ex-colleagues.nisa made a reservation booking at Al-majlis after much consideration.previously,i was indeed at guilt when some communication break down between us on the timing and meeting place that then led to a total confusion.im really really really sorry for all who waited,apologise for the mess.maaaf banget deh.nanti raya gwe mintak ampun lagi kok sama loh semua.

and ohh,actually we didnt really had an immediate breakfast due to the food delay,which almost took us about 30mins or more before we could enjoy our food after a day of hunger.should i say the service was kinda sloww? that made some of us being an unhappy customer. :/ despite,i was still hungry after the meal.very small serving lehh.to make the interval worth,we occupied the time catching up with each other.so far,its good to hear them doing great with their new jobs respectively.when's my turn to get employed and earn good money? sighhh~

was glad to see everyone there.after much of called off plans of meet ups,like finally we got to gather again for a quick catching up session. (:

` AZLAN'S 16TH !

2009-09-06T10:00:00.000-07:00

HAPPPY 16TH BIRTHDAY,BRO!

Here's to another year of experience.may what you wish for would come true.you should already know whats good and bad for you,think wisely and make the best decision for yourself.work hard towards your dreams of becoming a chef or maybe a skillful soccer player cause we believe you got the ability to achieve so one day.like i told you before,an opportunity comes once,never take it for granted.wish you all the best for your N level! im sure you can make it for Os next year.be good my brother.love you.

` WHERE GOT TIME !

2009-09-05T01:12:00.000-07:00

Time is a companion that goes with us on a journey. It reminds us to cherish each moment, because it will never come again. What we leave behind is not as important as how we have lived. Time never waits, catch up while you can. Nothing could stop the time from running. Don't waste any ticks for there'll be no such thing as 'take your time' anymore.

` UNPLANNED PLAN !

2009-08-30T23:17:00.000-07:00

Eventhough i was feeling rather shagged on sis's birthday, after i had an interview earlier somewhere very unknown,Bt Merah; i was at the verge of losing my way alone,and despite of the hibernation mode that could make me fall into another beauty sleep and cuddle up,i decided to go with the plan still.i was really catching up with the time till i didnt get to wash up but just to get changed into another pair and off i went.i shouldnt elaborate more.as long as sister's happy,together with the rest,its worth afterall.hohooo.(:

hope you love the gift,sisterlove.♥

since we already had an iftar at both obek and bibik's place,prolly this weekend is over at our place.to celebrate brother's 16th as well.hehhh.

` TWENTY-ONE YEARS !

2009-08-27T09:59:00.000-07:00

HAPPPY 21ST BIRTHDAY,BELOVED SISTER!

21 is just a difference of growing into a young adult.a new life awaits you,there are more to go.i wish you success and hope the best for you in life.may all of your wishes come true.may God bless you with full of happiness and give you great strength to face any obstacles in life later on.semoga dipanjangkan umur dan dimurahkan rezeki,insyaallah.have a blassstttt now! you know you're the most wonderful sister ive ever wished for.i love you many.muaacks.

` MEE SOTO OBEK GUE POWERRR !

2009-08-24T23:48:00.000-07:00

Woke up extra early yesterday,to meet up with qid in the noon.qid's mommy fetched me and liza and off we went for the mini Artistry(beauty products) talk over at Margaret Dr.i really got no slightest idea on whats going on cause all i knew was qid asked me over.actually,it was kinda like a small product show or prolly i should say a hands on facial wash whereby we were guided through the products and the steps as well on how to apply them.pardon my horrible face,looks more like a tapai basi.due to the need of removing our make-ups that made me and liza whine about.lucky qid,she didnt joined us through the hassle as she's a member and already known as the beauty consultant kaperr.hahaaa.i was make-upless after that.there goes my dark circles spotted.thanks.ugly!

im quite interested on those products.i feel that i need a change of facial care.will see when i could get those,depending on my financial budget now.hehhh.straight after to obek's place and helped out in the goreng-goreng part,for iftar together with the rest of the family.(:

` HOLY MONTH !

2009-08-23T23:22:00.000-07:00

RAMADHAN IS HERE.

Selamat Menjalani Ibadah Puasa to all muslims from all universe.

for i'll start to hear mom screaming waking everyone up,

SAHURRRRRRRRR~ SAHUUURRRRRRRR~

` WHERE'S THE RAIN !

2009-08-20T13:46:00.000-07:00

I HATE THE WEATHER LIKE THIS,SCORCHING HOT!
MAKES MY BODY SWEAT,AND MY ARMPITS GO WET.
THIS LONG AND THICK HAIR MAKES IT WORST.
HOW I WISH I COULD SHAVE OFF THOSE HAIR.
IT'D BE NICE YET CRAZY.
CHILLY DAYS PLEASE~

` SCIATICAAA !

2009-08-18T12:16:00.000-07:00

Kenduri was held at my place yesterday night.its been awhile that all the maternal family members get together.i think since the swine flu case that involved me.hahahaa.the best part was...DURIANS TIME! whoooo~

ohh by the way,went Geylang last sunday with mom and sister.i really felt lost.firstly,i was really amazed by the new geylang market eventhough the stench of the market is still the same.i know im abit slowww.hehee.another reason was that geylang was flooded with more foreigners than local.prolly maids from all universe unite.major turn off man.they come here and make desperate love with the rest of nak-step-mana-punya-hero-hindustan banglass! while the indon women were all dressed-up disgustingly sexy.fucked up.and it was like OMG! they conquered every patch of the grass,happily having picnic there.bikin sebokk jer.since when geylang is the best spot to have picnic?

my family has yet to decide on the colour code this raya.supposed to be gold.but it seems very hard to find a nice one.see how lahh,colour might vary.if possible i dont want to get them on a last minute basis.i bet this year i wont be going Geylang that often during fasting month.i'll suffer from heat stroke i tell you.

Barclays Premier League has just started.i know liverpool lost against tottenham.so what? its only the beginning.GO LIVERPOOL! liverfool,swimming pool or whatever else losers could name them. -_________-

okay bye.

` SELFISSSH-MONGER !

2009-08-16T01:54:00.000-07:00

Lately,i have alot of things circulating this brain of mine.i could hardly sleep at night.some uncertainties controlled my mind to get into the logical reasons that one could offer me.i dont know why im that affected by all these trivals that i shouldnt be.like most said,some things are better left unsaid.yet,i gotta make a few things clear and understandable here.i absolutely dislike when someone just has to accuse.worst still,lay the blame on me with all the false assumptions.

eversince you both are together,i am glad to see your relationship blooms.cause he is my friend who, i regard as a bestfriend or a brother indeed.we know each other real well,be it the good or ugly side of us.yes,we do fight,argue and ignore one another that we took a long period of time before we could resume to talking terms again.we shared our listening ears and tried to give a word of advice to make things look better.

for me being pointed on how disturbance i am, to your relationship,i sincerely think that it's something ridiculous.if you ever judge me as someone who is trying to ruin your love life,please i bet you got the wrong person here.i hope that you could widen your mind and think like a grown-up.being paranoid is common for us,girls.but hey,doesnt mean its wrong for me to even meet-up with my very own friend.you mean just by contacting and going out with each other,im flirting with your guy? i even asked him to get permission from you before we get to meet.cause so much that i knew,you dislike us from meeting.come on,eventhough you're in a relationship,you should at least give each other spaces for their own social life and not get tied down with curfews here and there.

goodness,i dont even have that intention of being the third party and destroying my own friend's relationship.seriously,thats very kiddish.this is the reason why sometimes i try to avoid myself from contacting,yet in the end,i got blamed for a friend who doesnt treasure friendship.

fyi,im not that into guys or even love these days.its not worth my time this very moment anyway.i hope you get me,i just had to let it out here and made this crystal clear.im just too tired of prioritising and placing others first on my list.how about my feelings then?

` SWEAT TO JB !

2009-08-13T15:46:00.000-07:00

JB was yesterday.after being procrastinating the days to collect our kain that we sent for tailor,yesterday me and sis ended up only to go with syahidah,sister's bestie along too.previously,i accompanied sis for her interview at one of the childcare near Yew Tee.and i had to wait under one of the void decks with full of flies buzzing around me,plus the foul smell of the garbage bin.till the stink sticks on me,damn.

for the very first time that i stepped into Yew Tee Plaza,whoaaa! not bad,eventhough the shops are really nonsensical yet the food outlets seem to be interesting.just name it,you get it.little did i know that Old Chang Kee was having their national day promotion sadly till yesterday only; everything for $1.chicken winggggggggggg was the best choice.hehhh.

headed to kranji and took a bus ride to larkin.the moment we collected our kain,i totally got no comments on how they sew it.despite being told many times,they still did it wrongly.so fucked up.blur cock to the maximum siaa.alamakkkkk~ bought keropoks there since mom asked to.we seriously looked foolish carrying the thin plastic bags with the keropoks inside.da mcm nenek keropok habes.hahahaaa!

afterwhich to City Sq for late lunch at Kenny Rogers.not nice lahh,esp the mashed potato was really tasteless.i just had to swallow everything cause lapar punya pasal.same goes to Mcd.the coke and the ice lemon tea doesnt taste like one.seriously.

anyways,i was in fact annoyed when me and sis walked around and people just had to stop our way or observe us one by one and question us with something silly, "How come both of you look the same?" like obviously we're sisters by blood for godness sake.durhhh!~ i dont know what makes us look too similar that people got amazed.mcm tk penah nmpk orang muke sama per? tsk tsk.apparently,we dont appear to be exactly alike also what.crazy!

how similar tell me?

okay,today i shall sit at home and make everyone happy.maybe i should watch UP! at home with lil sister.i should spend less nowadays.hmm,im craving for sushiss since yesterday. ):

` CRACKDOWN !

2009-08-12T01:20:00.000-07:00

I badly need to get myself an accessories box or container to arrange my sets of stuffs in order.i tend to lose a few of my favourite things.cause i just coulnt be bothered but to chunk them all at the corner of my pathetic drawer.everything in my room is in the most critical state,its in disarray.the closet is in a jumble,me and sis hardly find our clothes in there.im tired of digging out clothes each time.i hate looking at my stuff go disorder.its time to shipshape the room.where's the time now? anyone who's willing to give a helping hand,would be much appreciated.(:

` WE LOVE SEAFOOOOOD !

2009-08-11T13:46:00.000-07:00

So much of the family,or should i just say dad in particular wanting to go to Pulau Senibung(johor) to have a seafood dinner eversince he read about how tasty the dishes over there in berita harian i guess.then prolly he was drooling and craving over seafood for the previous days.nope,we didnt even get across there.cause everyone were on their lazy mode.we ended having dinner at CCK Park yesterday.hehhhh,jauh lah sangat.

i tell you i couldnt even track down when was the last we had a family dinner like this.it has been damn long man.tsk tsk.and i swear i seldom spent time with my family members during my working days.i know,sometimes working life takes over our quality time.yet,nothing comes first than my family.

big eaters.irritating them. razak's angels. mom enjoying her soursoft(soursoap) drink.hehhh,according to how she pronounce.lol.

we were really bloated that everyone couldnt get off their seat after dinner.i myself couldnt walk properly cause my tummy could burst without signal.till dad was teasing my lil sister most of the time that her pants could tear cause it got so tight for her already.fyi,she's growing bigger than i do that she might overtake me in size.scary ohhhhh~ i feel so small.heheheheee.nah,kidding!

we should step on Senibung one fine evening for dinner.(: ohh,i love cereal butter prawns aloooooooooooooooooooot! hohooo.

` MAKE LIFE BEAUTIFUL !

2009-08-06T01:13:00.000-07:00

What's wrong with god's creature nowadays?
HUMANS.
Are they born brainless or they are simply heartless?
Its interesting meeting new people who came across your life.
But it gets worthless when those humans who tried
to leave an ugly spot in your life.
Could they be more appreciative than taking you for granted?

So what's best now?

` SEROJAJAJAJA !

2009-08-05T14:59:00.000-07:00

There's always thousand and one things to crap about when it comes to me meeting Ash.early dinner at Pizza Hut since the promotion of the dinner special is quite worth it,5 courses eventhough the dessert of a scoop of an ice-cream was just a plain one.say marina sq's pizza hut provides the best service for a customer like me.

then off to you know where,since we've got nothing much to do and rather scream our lungs out sometimes.we looked foolish when we took a cab ride just for less than 5 minutes i should say.blame it on the cab driver nowadays who doesnt really know the roads of Spore that well and made us look for another cab during peak hours.thanks ahh,apek.

am so pisssed off with my damn comp.cause it's half-dead in a way that certain windows couldn't be open and couldn't be saved too.goodness sake,i cant even logged into MSN.really shitty man.im on the verge of smashing this comp out of the window.while at the same time,blogger is not making me any happier with the sickening icons went missing for i dont know how long ago.sucha pain in the assss,GRRRRR!

` WHAT'S NEW ON A MONDAY !

2009-08-03T23:41:00.000-07:00

A SUPER DAMN EXTREMELY EXTRAORDINARY HILARIOUS MOVIE!
beware of the after effect of this movie:
EXPENDED CHEEKBONES.
HAHAHAHAHAHAA~

` MINI-FAREWELL DINNER !

2009-08-02T11:45:00.000-07:00

Last day of work was kinda sucky actually.seriously,i thought if skipping my last day cause it seems so meaningless already.yet,i dragged myself and had to go for some reason.and didnt know that last day at work would be that demanding.stressssful you know cause i had to teach a new staff on the registration process.i should be slacking at work all day long.haiyerr.

lucky that i could hold back my emotions a little,if not,TTSH would be flooded with my tears.hehee.since most of our contracts has ended,we exchanged well wishes and great hugs.a few of us had a mini farewell dinner over at Fish&Co. after work.it was kinda rushing that we had to gobble down the large portion of food since Fish&Co closes at 1050hrs.ended up,we helped one another to finish it up.

the seafood platter for two.
thats about it.well,now im back to basic = JOBLESS.
yeahhh,again.

` TRIAGE STAFFS ROCK !

2009-07-31T11:49:00.000-07:00

My contract of 3 months has ended and its time for me to bid goodbye to those strangers whom i made.eventually,now they are called great companions,friends indeed.sincerely,it was a very pleasurable yet risky job that i had in TTSH.on the whole,it was a totally good fun working along with lots of compassionate people around me.they are the ones who spirited me to go to work each time,made my day lively,full of laughters.i learnt to know more about them,till we got closer and bonded.we joked,talked as absurdly as possible,laughed till we teared,gossiped around,made horrible remarks on each other,and even argued over something miniature.they are my daily capsule that i met everyday.those were the days,my friends.without you guys,working were absolutely meaningless.for sure,i'd treasure those memorable days in TTSH.im gonna missssss every bit of it.

in the memories of-LINKBRIDGE,THERMAL SCANNER,VTS,SECURITIES,ALCOHOL WIPES,SURGICAL MASKS,JULIE'S BISCUITS,SPLASH MINERAL
WATER,FRUITS,PENS MARKERS AND PAPERS,EACH-A-CUP PEACH MILK TEA,MY ALL TIME KFC LUNCH,BINGO,SUDOKU,CROSSWORD PUZZLES,NUMBER GAMES,VELOCITY/NOVENA SQ2,IRRITATING VISITORS.

big appreciation to everyone that has worked with me,esp to AUDREY THE INCOMPARABLE through the thick and thin.thank you sooo much.i love you people.but i know you all love me more,cause im AMOUR THE BEST IMITATOR EVER.of courseeeee~ hehhh.

` LIFE IS ALL ABOUT SHARING !

2009-07-28T20:55:00.000-07:00

How hard it is to see someone at their lowest point,to see someone going through tough times,to see them pouring out their sorrows or even to see someone doing something silly or ridiculous to get out of difficult situation faced.just somebody whom you really cared.that's when you should be by one's side and go through the thicks together,never let them be alone or even if they should cry to feel better,cry with them,feel them.in a situation of the worst,in no way that it could be solved by hurting one's self.obviously,we're born with brains that could generate various thoughts that eventually lead to a solution.so,USE YOUR BRAIN! USE YOUR BRAIN! USE YOUR BRAIN!

there're moreeeee ways than you ever thought.there's always a solution to a problem.work things out and try at least.just a smile would put your worry away.

` TAXI FARES JUST SUCK !

2009-07-26T14:31:00.000-07:00

Soo much of me looking forward to Saturday to watch Obsessed,but cathays being a bitch! they dont show that movie yesterday.purposely wanna test my temperamental mood level ehh.nevermind,as long as i could unleash my misssses and let loose of myself.thanks you people.(: its weird though after being home quarantined for a week,suddenly i got to go out,have a little space to breathe indeed.im cautious when im outside and feel awkward as if the public know that i just recovered from the Influenza A.hahaha,i wonder if they knew,they wouldnt wanna go near me i guess.like durrhh,singaporeans are soo whatever.ohh,i still have that slightest cough and fever that comes and go.errr,am i fit for my last week of work? :/

okayy,watching Syurga Cinta now.Awal Ashaari is fucking hot! dont disturb.

` WHY ONLY TODAY STUPIDD!

2009-07-24T14:50:00.000-07:00

Prison Break Season 4 ended with me shedding tears,of cos lahh.cause Scofield afterall died.which means that there will be no more charming actions that i'd drool over that brilliant intelligent hot man.awwww~

yayyy! finally,its down to Friday.my quarantine days are over and i'll be home-free from tmr onwards.hoohoo.well,im getting better with only the help of the medicines.i'd have my fever back if i didnt take those drugs to act as a painkiller and not make me recover really well,away from those diseases.really sucksss you know.how bad,that im totally sick of medicines and wish not to have them any sooner again.hmmmm,and anddd,i got a long list of cravingsss eversince im down with swine.guess what? hehehhhh!

actually ahh,you dont know how terrible i feel now.fernando torres is gonna be at Velocity today! but i just couldnt step out of the house.this is sooo bad.): right????? grrrr.

` WHINE LIKE A SWINE !

2009-07-17T21:00:00.000-07:00

IM A H1N1 POSITIVE.
thanks to all who called me after one another for the

get well soon,take care wishes.
i really hope everyone who got contacted with me will be fine.
dont worry,i'll get well soon.i'll fight against the swine.hahaa.
much appreciated,thank you nice people.(:

` OBSESSSY !

2009-07-16T11:49:00.000-07:00

'ASTALLAHAGUSTA.'